1000 Comment Question Meme!!1

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1K COMMENTS REACHED, and in hallowed RP tradition it is question meme time.

Ask me anything! About my characters Chrys, general player stuff, general RP stuff, etc etc etc. You know the drill.

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And this comment is gonna be super more dotpointed cause essaying takes forever 8(

IMMEDIATE IMPRESSIONS:

- aaaaaaaaaaaa familiar face that is actually the correct person aaaaaaa
- someone not a potential threat/likely to shank him
- aaaaaaaaaa it's Aeron's Aerta aaaaaaaa

Result: i-instant collapsing on '-' and just. DRAWING ALL THE SUPPORT FROM, and letting himself truly actually open up to and let his long-concrete guard down around and. Her letting him. He hasn't had anyone like that in a long time. A long, long time, and her merely existing was enough to just break right in and give that glimmer of a prospect that "...maybe... I don't have to do all the standing up on my own anymore."

A BIT LATER:

- important person important person important person
- Aeron isn't here but a not-Aeron is and. How. Does she even feel about that. ...let's not talk about it for now.
- she kind of immediately adopted him like a brother and he is just. He knows. He is not Aeron. But he can't bring himself to object, because by god he has been so goddamned lonely, in a murdercave where the people that were left were mad or empty shells of what they were, and Red isn't here, nor Aeron, or Spirea, no one else is, and would it really be so bad to treat each other as siblings would. So a brother he will be. Even though he hasn't been able to actually call her "sister" yet, because the word feels strange on the tongue.

When Ptou came to visit C:

- ....oh I guess she is no longer under Kolotha's bond
- why didn't I think about that before (maybe because he didn't notice her behaving any differently from what he used to know of her, at least superficially, also being wrapped up in a cocoon of his own trauma)
- come to think of it I haven't even been considering what she might be going through regarding that, and maybe
- maybe she needs someone to listen to her right now, too

And then that conversation happened and it was... his turn. His turn to be someone she could lean on and be sad and by god, he couldn't even say "don't blame yourself for the things you did as Kolotha's tool", because it didn't feel like something he could say and truly mean, because... can you really not hold yourself accountable for something like that? At all? And it pissed himself off thinking about it, and he kept it all in his heart, and just. Tried to help her. Realized she needed help now that the world she had always known had crumbled under her feet and disappeared on levels he never experienced.

And then this Gilgamesh thing:

- ........light, she's incredibly exploitable right now by potential douchebags
- I mean there's a probability that she'll just end up looking for someone to tell her what to do like a replacement Kolotha-thing, because Free Will Is Hard for someone who's never known it for ages, and what if that replacement is a manipulative douchebag
- .......this Gilgamesh sounds like a douchebag and a charismatic one
- one who wants to just up and kill gods
- 8| 8| 8|

HE IS CONCERNED. DEEPLY. Not only because the last thing he wants is for her to just fall back into a life of being the tool of someone else's will, but. He does not want to lose her. Period. And he has enough experience with being powerless before the might of gods that the prospect her supporting Gilgamesh in some possibly highly delusional/un-thought-out plan to butt heads with them is just. No. No, we are digging into this bullshit and finding out how bullshit it may or may not be, but it sounds like the kind that may end with her doom and. No.

It's selfish, and hypocritical in a way. Maybe she does want to doom herself. Maybe she does want to make the choice of not having to make choices. But he can't abide by it. At the very least not until he's sure she's honed a true will of her own. And even then, the fact remains: he doesn't want to lose her. She is the largest piece of what makes Thusia even a remotely passable afterlife for him.